I never understood why starting a family is such a meaningful and fulfilling aspect of life, until now.
When we first met, @awakenwithjp and I had no intentions of getting married or having kids.
Then we fell in love and realized the reason we never truly wanted those things before was that we hadn’t found each other yet.
It became very clear within our first year together that kids were definitely in our future, but I was still hesitant and wanted to wait a few years to start trying.
Why I was holding back
I had a lot of fears related to pregnancy and becoming a mom.
At the time I was afraid of how much my body would change, how much I’d have to shift my business, and how much freedom I’d ultimately be sacrificing.
I also hadn’t spent much time around babies, or kids, in my life and was nervous that I wouldn’t know what to do with my own.
The mind is really tricky in this way…
It’s really good at predicting what we will lose and worst-case scenarios. But has a hard time imagining the magnitude of what we will gain if we take the leap into the unknown and face our fears head-on.
Slowly, but surely I started to feel the call. It was like a light switch went on inside. I was not only ready to face these fears but eager to experience the right of passage that is pregnancy.
Ultimately
Overall I’m proud of myself for how I’ve been navigating this metamorphosis. I have bad days and good days, but I’m grateful for it all.
I’m experiencing the growth I wanted. I know the most rewarding, exponential, and long-lasting growth doesn’t come without growing pains and discomfort.
My favorite aspect of this entire process has been the deepening of our love.
Our love continues to grow day by day. I see JP stepping up to support me and our family in ways I couldn’t have fathomed or imagined before. What a blessing!
I’m 34 weeks pregnant now and am finalizing my birth plan with my midwife on Thursday.
I’ve been diligently practicing deep relaxation techniques with my HypnoBabies audio tracks to prepare for labor. I’m not nervous at all. I’m eager and excited to see what my body can do.
Much Love,
Amber Sears
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