We celebrate Wilders 6th week on Earth and I’m feeling lots of exciting and nerve-racking shifts…
Mama bear mode has been activated full force and my priorities have radically changed.
Never before have I been awake at night thinking about worst-case scenarios…nor felt guilt leaving the house to run an errand…nor felt anxiety and fear about random things like…
What if I run out of breast milk?!
On Being A New Mom
There are SO many firsts being a new mom and every little decision seems to invoke worry about whether I’m doing the “right” or “wrong” thing. I’m doing my best to trust my intuition.
I realize and have come to accept that this excessive worrying is just part of protecting and nurturing a baby. It’s inherent and instinctual.
I understand now why so many mothers speak about the guilt they experience when they take time away from their kids for self-care, work, date night, or a short trip.
The pull to stay near your baby 24/7 is real, but if there’s one thing I’ve learned in my life it’s that taking care of ourselves first and foremost ensures we have the capacity to do all other aspects of life with more ease, grace, patience, compassion and strength.
On Why Self-Care is Still Important
So while it’s been an internal struggle to allow family and friends to watch Wilder…so I can commit to daily gym time and dabble in a bit of work…it’s been necessary for my health, sanity, and happiness.
Only from a full cup can I give my best to our little guy. Only from a full cup can I be fully present for this gift and incredible love.
Part of keeping my cup full is learning how to ask for and receive help from others. Something I’ve not been super good at.
I’m used to hiring staff that I pay to help me, but asking friends and family to help has been a new level of discomfort.
But despite the many growth edges, I’m elated to be feeling and seeing my core again!
I’ve been practising foundational Pilates mat exercises and breath work to mend my 2 finger diastasis recti from pregnancy.
Our final 6 weeks check-up with my amazing midwife, @monika_stone_midwife, is next week. I can’t wait to see how much Wilder has grown. It’s crazy how fast he’s changed!
Much Love,
Amber Sears
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